We are headed toward a season of unknown... well, the one thing we do know, is that life is not going to be easy... practically speaking. Questions about the impact of drastic reduction of time, energy and money are swirling like a tornado in my head and heart, not knowing what the future holds. Is this fair? Is God abandoning us? How can God turn His back on a family that has given it all for His kingdom, for His purposes, and for His glory? Have we done something wrong?
I always get emotional when alone in my car, I guess it is where I am thinking most clearly, or have the least amount of distractions. On Thursday as I was driving home from Life Group, after an amazing time of encouragement, I found myself thinking and contemplating a new question. What is the point of earthly blessings? Why would God choose to give financial prosperity to one, and struggle to another? I realized that for the past 6 years I have been in a season of prosperity. Life has been good, relatively easy, at least practically, so what does this mean that life is changing?
Just then, the next song clicked onto the CD player, and it happened to be a worship song that I have led people in churches on multiple occasions. The last verse of the song goes like this...
This is my prayer in the harvest
where favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
This seed I received I will sow.
Immediately I began thinking,
"For a devoted Kingdom Laborer of Christ, what is the point of earthly blessings."
According to this song, it is only to give it away. Hmmm... can that really be true? Is the only reason God fills us, so we can be emptied again? If that is true, then maybe I can begin to see this season of life as just simply a natural cycle of life with Christ. I have spent the last 6 years of my life being filled, taken care of, blessed, for what? So that I could pat myself on the back and continue on feeling great about how I have taken charge of my life? No, to be poured out again!
It struck me in that moment, that my life is ultimately a tool to be used by God. If He chooses to bless me with earthly blessings, I can see it as simply a sharpening of that tool. My life has more to offer others. I have more to give, not more to hold on to.
Then in the times of dessert, while I am being poured out, I have a greater opportunity to display the love, grace, sacrifice of Christ then ever. Is God still good? Did something change because life got hard? No, not at all. I was simply filled so that God could use me. After all, my greatest opportunities for life change, impact, and closeness with my God is not afforded to me in moments of prosperity, but in moment of trial.
So, I choose to be poured out, I choose to see my life as a tool, I embrace the breaking, using, and re-shaping God desires to do in my life in this next season...
Starbucks here I come!
Sounds like a great calling, Jake! I too have been thinking about this notion... wondering what it would be like to "simplify" for lack of a better term.
ReplyDeleteI know there have been times in the last couple of years that I "wanted" to work at Starbucks just to see how much more time and talent I could, give away.
Good luck man!
Jake, thanks for posting this. Jonathan and I are going through a very similar season of life right now. It's been a very challenging start to our life together, but in the same vein, it's been very GOOD. I've felt that we are alone in our struggle many times. It seems like everyone else has it "easier" than us. It was encouraging to read your blog. I feel like the last 5 years of my life have been very easy. God has give me more than I've needed. Now, suddenly, everything has changed and been stripped away. I'm in this completely new places and in the most difficult season (financially) that I've ever been in. Just wanted to say thanks for sharing. There are so many questions running through my mind daily. I wonder if we'll ever be able to afford kids, or even be able to pay our student loans. Then I remember that HE is good, and HE gives and takes away. I've been resting in the fact that I have absolutely no control over how much we have. HE gives, and now He is taking away. All for HIS glory. Love you guys!!! -Timaree
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